Overflowing

My head and my heart are overflowing right now with so many things that I want to express, yet mere words seem inadequate.

Phrases that circle through my mind all day are...
I am blessed.
God is so gracious.
SO worth the wait.

I am blessed. 
I have been so overwhelmed by the love and support that we have received. I had no idea how many people have been praying for this sweet boy. We have the most amazing friends  and family. What a blessing it has been for me to realize just how many people really love Ben. We have been loved on and ministered to in ways that I couldn't even dream.

God is so gracious. 
Adoption was not my plan. As someone very wise once told me, "It was not my plan A or to be completely honest, not even my plan B." BUT GOD is gracious enough to change my heart. My plan C was always his plan A. Always. I just couldn't see that. He is gracious enough to be patient and wait for me. Gracious enough not to give me what I thought I wanted because He was holding out for something so much better. When I hold my sweet Ben, I cannot imagine being a mom any other way.

SO worth the wait. 
This little boy is the perfect child that God intended for us all along. He is not a consolation prize and certainly not second best. I love him more than I could ever dream and know without a doubt that he is the greatest thing that I could have ever hoped for. If it meant walking our long and painful journey 1000 more times, I would do it in a heartbeat to get to Ben. He is worth every painful decision, every heartbreak, every tear...SO worth the wait.