Update

Sorry for the lack of updates on this blog, but there isn't a whole lot to share.

We are still anxiously awaiting the arrival of our little one.

Every time I sit down to update the blog, I end up not posting it because it all sounds negative. But the truth is, it's where I am right now.

Sure, I am happy and elated beyond words.

But, I daily have to fight this terrible thing called FEAR.

I know more than anyone what a hard time this is for our birthmom. I can feel her struggle and her pain. And for her, my heart breaks. This is the hardest decision that she will ever have to make in her life.

But as a woman that longs to be a mom, my heart battles fear. Fear that she will change her mind. Fear that she will decide to parent this baby girl that I already love so much.

I would not blame her and I would not be angry with her.

But I will be devastated. 

I want God's will for this child's life and if that does not include us, then I will try to understand. I will still trust Him. I will still seek His direction for where to go next and believe that He will make us parents someday. I pray that to Him every day and with every ounce of my being, I want to mean it. He has led us to this place for a reason and He will be faithful to complete it. I know that He will sustain me in the heartache, but I still don't want it.

Will you please pray for us right now? Pray that God will give us a peace as we wait on this sweet baby to be born that the enemy will not steal our joy. And please pray for our birthmom as she makes this painful decision.

Baby Shower

Some amazing friends from Sunday school threw us a shower to celebrate the baby! It was such a great day and I was so overwhelmed by the love that we were shown! It really was surreal to be the guest of honor, instead of the one throwing the shower. It's a day that I will treasure always! 

(A BIG thank you to Allison who was so wonderful to capture some great pictures for me!)

It was a theme of celebrating Baby Woolley and all of the "woolly" decorations were so adorable! I appreciated all of the time and effort that my friends put into the details!

My friend Tami made the most amazing cake balls that you have ever tasted...

But the woolly lamb cake balls were by far, the most adorable things that I have ever seen:

My friend Jenn said the most beautiful prayer over me and the baby. We were all in tears! 

  

And everyone wrote very sweet notes to us and to the baby

 

Me with my wonderful friends and hostesses:

Nursery Progress

The nursery is starting to come together! We just need to get some stuff on the walls and I think that we will be ready for baby!

The rocker in the picture was the one that my mom used to rock me in, as a baby. It doesn't match, but I can't stand the thought of altering it in any way.

We are so blessed to have such a gifted Meme! She handmade all of the baby's bedding for us. We love it and are so excited to have such a special gift!

This is Aurora. Addison, our four year old niece bought her with her own money for the baby. She said that she can wait for the baby in her bed until she comes home. How sweet is that? I cried. 

This was another Christmas gift from Meme. She made this bulletin board to match the bedding:

 And my very talented friend, Melanie is custom painting a beautiful canvas with the baby's name to hang over the crib. I cannot wait to see it! I know that it will be amazing!

My friend Luann found this painting for me and it is perfect in the room! I love it!